it seems,

im sick.
im sick of feeling sick.
im sick of feeling sick about feeling sick.
oh god.

it seems that this is going to be a rant, because yes lachlan dannie was right people do use blogs to vent; even you.

you know how people say, "it feels like every step i take forward i then follow it with two back."
well, thats excatly how i feel, now i could complain about it only i cannot be fucked. i guess the only consellation is that eventually i will move forward, i just have to wait untill i cant take two steps forward with the occasional one back.
it seems that every time i get something right something falls from the pile and it fucks the whole thing up.
its seems.
i keep saying that things seem like this or that, does that mean that everything isnt really happening. that it only feels that way or its some mirage.
lots of things seem like something, but some things are.

its seems .... no
things are fucked.

tell me what are we really doing here.

today is valentines day, if i were to look at what i did last year it would involve being at brodies, with andrew.
and really i just remeber being really happy, but today was not spent by gazing lovingly into a boyfriends eyes.
only funnily enough i did spend it with andrew.
and yes im as shocked as you.
i guess it made me realise how much time has passed between who i was and who ive become.
but when your young how do you trust how you feel?
its never going to last and where is the point?
how do you know when its real?
and if it never is, why do some feelings never leave?

so many questions.
and my answers well, they arent really there.
i have no answers, im still trying to figure this out.

"Is it a minus or a plus, does enough equal enough. If you can't do the math, then nothing adds up, tell me why I'm here. Sure I want someone to understand but I don't need the stress. I'm not about being analyzed like it's some kind of test.
dont have to be a genius to figure what's between us"


but hey my blogs a piece of shit and is not worth subscribing for so i cbf to continue.

and young heart turns to love.

valentines day, what a stupid day.
if some guy likes me could he tell me on a day, ANY other day.
im so sick of everyone being all RAH RAH RAH! valentines day.
but seriously its such a bunch of shit. and a waste of money
and a day where if your single you get made to feel like shit by a bunch of people who by next month probably wont be speaking to eachother.

and yeah maybe because my last relationship megga failed im a little bit rahh at the whole situation.
but atm im so fine with being single and yet i have people being like OMG MY BOYFRIEND GOT BE A ROSE AND ITS GOING TO DIE TOMORROW BUT OMG HOW CUTE!
like wtf? because its a waste of money
and the price of roses goes up 40% during valetines day.
so yeah my valetines day wont involve a sexually enraged boy but at least im not so desperate for attention i actually need one.

on the subject of love.
im realllllllly hating on that word.
sure i use it
but im so sick of stupid girls being all OMG i LOVE you its like ummmm sweetie your 15 youve been dating for like a week stfu? yeahh
cause the chance of you actually getting married or even lasting a year is... oh yeah basically never gonna happen and im so sick of it.
and then theres msn names i HATE peoples msn names that are:
(lets say my name is anna) anna (L) OMG DYLAN YOUR SO MY SOUL MATE!!! ILY!! XOXO :):):) (L)

yes ive seen that.
it actually exists, obviously i changed the name but really? are people THAT clueless.
oh and lets not forget the pm (L)dylan babieeeee (L) ily foreveerrr.

i think im going to spew.
young love.
so fucking pointless

and dear readers, if your single and alone this valentines; just remember ily babbieeeeeee (L)


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