its seems i used to be able to tell you everything and know that you would be there the second i needed you. im sick of chasing you and your time and im sick of knowing theres a wall between us holding us back.
you used to say to me the bad boys always got the girl, what about me?
where do i fit into your life?
you always said if i needed you no matter when you would come.
where are you now?
you always said i could count on you.
why am i alone?
im so sick of hating you then falling back under your spell the second you text or i see you.
im haunted by the memories and can no longer listen to songs or hear words without thinking of you.
If this is all just some game to you, im telling you it stops now.
you have no IDEA the things im going through and how much i need your help
so i guess the main idea is; fuck you.
fuck your amazing smile
fuck your childish laugh
fuck your soothing voice
fuck you for invading my mind
fuck you for making me happy
fuck you for abandonding me
but mainly fuck you for making me love you.
with unshead tears and a broken heart, Helena.
* this is NOT to an ex.
I think this is my favourite one of your blogs.
ReplyDeleteClearly more thought was put into ones such as the "Lone Pine" - but this one had so much more raw, pure emotion. It was moving, and let's us see how you're really feeling.
It sounds very similar to what I've been through, and what I've recently been through.
But fuck him, I really hope he reads this and understands how you feel, it would sort a few things out.
Love you loads,,,
xxxxx Dannie
Hey Helena, me again :) you probably won't know who i am until you read the name at the bottom with the little smiley face next to it, i told you i'd read this.
ReplyDeleteAnd I did.
Love It.
A Lot.
You have now been added to my list of "Must Read" bloggers.
Congratz.
Cam :)
Hey Helena, me again :) you probably won't...
ReplyDeleteActually you know what?? Fuck it, you suck.
Cam :)